A Month in Review: June 2017

June was not my finest month. I finally found a new doctor up here and got through the first appointment well enough and got my anxiety meds dose bumped up a little, but nearly cried when I got blood drawn for tests and did cry when I went back for my next appointment. The doctor was very nice, but unfortunately all she had to distract me from my anxiety attack with was the news that I tested positive for celiac disease. So now I have an endoscopy to worry about, because that’s the next step to confirm, and that’s a lot more invasive than what freaked me out at the follow-up.

Maybe it’s that I’m still adjusting to the new medication dose, but I’m constantly on edge lately and it’s exhausting.

On the other hand, I only wrote three posts in June but one of them was a book review. One of my goals for the year was to do at least five reviews so I’m pleased about making progress on that.


Here’s what I am currently:

Writing

… Nothing. I kind of wanted to do Camp NaNoWriMo, but I just don’t have the energy with so much anxiety and other things I need to do demanding my attention.

Planning

… To work really hard to change the things I can change and accept/work with the things I can’t.

Making

… Avoiding gluten a priority. My grandpa, who was diagnosed with celiac disease when I was still in high school, has been off gluten so long that if he gets any contamination he ends up spending an hour throwing up afterwards. I’m definitely not there, but whenever I eat something that I know could sneakily contain some wheat I definitely psyche myself out into feeling awful.

Anticipating

… Bedtime. I am tired.

Reading

… Terry Pratchett, my fallback in times of stress. I know them so well and I know all the bits I really enjoy, so I have those to look forward to.

Watching

… Twin Peaks, seasons one and two. When I was a kid, my parents had the soundtrack for the show and, for some reason, kept a picture of me from when I was about four in the front of the CD case. That alone made me want to listen to it, and most of the songs are so hauntingly beautiful. I would listen to it in my room and flip through the CD booklet, looking at the headshots of the actors with their characters’ names below and trying to imagine what they were like.

As far as actually watching the show goes, this is my second attempt. I just finished the first season and I will definitely keep going with it this time around.

Feeling

… Overwhelmed. So, so overwhelmed.

Needing

… A vacation. Thankfully, I’m getting two this month: a long weekend/work from home stretch over 4th of July, and Disneyland with my mom in two weeks. She’s been really great about contacting her friends who live near Anaheim about GF options in the park.

Loving

… How supportive my partner is. They came with my to my follow-up appointment to literally hold my hand, and I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have someone I trust this much as my safety net.

Hating

… The health care bill Republicans are trying to push through. This has been a bad month for worrying about my health, and dropping potential financial concerns on top of that is swell.

Hoping

… To be able to relax sometime soon. I have a therapy appointment in a couple weeks, and I’m hoping that will help. Here’s to July being a better month!

A Month in Review: May 2017

Where did May go?

My birthday celebration went perfectly. I didn’t get one of the two things actually on my list (a food processor), but my partner’s mom gave me one that she just sort of had and wasn’t using. Actually, I’m not sure it’s ever been used. I’m so excited because now I can do more things in the kitchen!

Most importantly, now I can make smoothies. A blender would probably do that more efficiently but a food processor is more versatile. (This is very much me turning into my dad here, but when I find a grater disc for the food processor and can grate big blocks of cheese.) Both my partner and I went to the doctor a couple weeks ago and got some wakeup calls about our heath, so we’re making a big push to eat healthier. Brown rice instead of white rice, almond milk instead of regular milk. No more pizza, no more ice cream — with exceptions made if we go for a hike and earn a reward.

As far as writing goes, I didn’t do much in May compared to April. Even so, I hit my minimum goal of at least two short stories a month. I’ve also been allowing myself to get sucked into reading more short stories on TheProse.com.

One final note… Remember the cat garden I mentioned in my March review? The wheatgrass and thyme died. We need to start over and make sure the pot has better drainage.


 

Here’s what I am currently:

Writing

… In theory. One birthday gift I randomly received was an Amazon Echo Dot. (My mom works in the Silicon Valley and ended up with one, I guess because her company built a chip in it or something.) I set it up so it will give me prompts but, ironically, I keep forgetting the command that will get it to stop. Some of the ideas it’s popped out at me have been really cool… but a part of me still wants to get my Z story done. It’s the last thing I planned to write for the A to Z Challenge and dammit I want to tell that story. … Maybe it’s something I can do for July’s Camp NaNoWriMo.

Planning

… To finally find a new therapist this month. I really liked the one I was talking to before I moved up here, but I haven’t seen her in probably a year now and it’s really time. In May I finally found a new primary care doctor and got them to bump my anxiety prescription up a bit, so this is the next logical step.

Making

… A resolution to visit my grandparents more often once my aunt’s segment of the family moves to Michigan after Father’s Day. My grandma was so upset that my brother had to go back to Nevada after visiting for Memorial Day that she cried, and I’m going to be her nearest grandchild. Oldest granddaughter to the rescue!

Anticipating

… Finishing a big task at work very soon. Once that’s done I will have officially written all the content for an entire site! (I built the the cider website from scratch, but a lot of that copy was provided by my boss and I just protrude it up a bit.) Super excited to be able to have that on my resume. 

Reading

… The Newsflesh series by Mira Grant. I re-listened to the first two, and the end of book one made me cry again. The Thursday before Memorial Day I was driving down 101 to a store visit, openly grieving a character’s death. So I finally got around to putting a hold on the third at my local library. I’ve never checked out an eAudiobook before but I’ve got my fingers crossed that I’ll be able to listen to it in my car, if not through my iPod then through my phone.

Watching

… Old seasons of the Amazing Race. We started at the most recent season on Hulu and are working our way backwards (with the exception of the second chances season), brainstorming our perfect honeymoon.

Feeling

… Tense. I don’t know why, but lately my jaw has been feeling tight again. Although I never technically got a confirmation that the problem was TMJ, but a few years ago I would have these periods of overwhelming anxiety that my mouth was going to get stuck shut, or stuck open, or just generally stuck, and I would do this weird compulsive popping thing until the feeling passed. Except doing that also reinforced the feeling… My dentist gave me a mouthguard to wear in my sleep, but I haven’t needed it for the past year. I think I’m just a little stressed about my job and my weight.

Needing

… More sleep. I’m not good about going to bed early, and in the morning I always push getting up to the last possible second before I have to roll out, get dressed, and go to work.

Loving

… How well our families get along with each other. My partner is my rock, and it’s so great for both of us to feel accepted by each other’s parents and extended family. I’m actually engaged in an epic Words With Friends saga with my future aunt-in-law right now, and when I won my first game against her and texted my partner’s mom about it she replied, “Yea!!!! Good for you!!! Smack her down!!” It was hilarious.

Hating

… That the US is pulling out of the Paris Climate Agreement. My only consolation is that at least one key person in my state’s legislature is saying that California will technically stay in. I think it’ll happen. I have hope for that much, at least. The rest, I just don’t know.

Hoping

… That there are no family dramas this month. 

A Month in Review: April 2017

$_58I know that I started my March review saying it was a very busy month, but April was crazy busy! Recently I acquired a Boynton Wild Ones 2017 pocket calendar and the month of April is decorated with flying pigs. This is fitting, because I started doing store visits in April and, if you’d asked me a few years ago, the phrase “when pigs fly” would have been connected with this sort of thing. Plus, my parents came up one weekend for a visit, so we had to clean the apartment. Plus, our friends came up the weekend after that and actually slept on our couch, so we super had to clean the apartment.

So that was all wild. But the store visits mean bigger reimbursement checks, more exercise, and less stressful office time, and the apartment has never looked better.

Here are some of my other March highlights:

  • I wrote 23 short stories in 30 days!!! When I went through and counted likes/comments/views, both here and on TheProse.com where I was also posting these almost daily, the top six were:
  • All of the comments I received were wonderful. Thank you so much for reading!
  • My partner is the best for reading through all those stories on such short deadline. I am the luckiest writer in the world.
  • This past weekend, when our friends came up to visit, we did a two-day wine and food tasting event and it was so much fun! I don’t remember the different wines so much as the different foods, especially towards the end of the days, but we had a blast. Would do again, and I feel like we got our money’s worth.18095201_1879429792308282_3893139896772067328_n
  • The cat’s out of the bag… We got a third cat and told both our parents over Easter. She’s a little all-black kitty with yellow eyes and her name is Noodle.

And here’s what I am currently:

Writing

… Stories for X, Y, and Z. I didn’t get to them for the April challenge, but I still have ideas for them and will get the stories written eventually.

Planning

… To bake more often. I saw a post on Instagram that gave me the idea of keeping dough in the fridge at all times and using it to make pies out of leftovers. Also, we got some gluten free noodles that I’m excited about, including some lasagna noodles. For lack of a better pan, I am eventually going to attempt a lasagna in a pie dish, haha.

Making

… A new habit, or trying to anyway. I’m gradually trying to work abdominal crunches into my daily routine.

Anticipating

… My birthday! 29 isn’t a landmark year, unless you look at it as my last birthday in my twenties. I haven’t decided how to feel about this yet, but I’m looking forward to everyone coming up here for a birthday dinner rather than me and my partner having to drive down to the South Bay.

Reading

… Through a bunch of blog posts from the A to Z Challenge.

Watching

… The Great British Baking Show. My partner and I have watched a lot of cooking shows, but they always seem so stressful. This one is by far more relaxing, and based more on technical and fundamental skills than throwing stuff at the contestants and see how they do off the top of their heads. In this show, the contestants alternate between some challenges they can prepare and practice for and some that they can’t. I like it a lot.

Feeling

… Tired. The past two months have been non-stop… I have my fingers crossed that I’ll be able to slow down a little bit. Not one of my strengths but I am trying.

Needing

… Anew primary care doctor. I need to get my anti-anxiety prescription renewed, and I’ve made an appointment but I’m going to run out before that. Today I managed to start the process of getting a one-shot refill that’ll tide me over, so fingers crossed. I’m also hoping to get the dosage bumped up a little when I have the actual appointment.

Loving

… My partner and our cats, even though someone in this house gave me ringworm (and I literally have no idea and no way of ever knowing who). This is another reason I have a doctor visit this month.

Hating

… How hot it is. I know, I know… Summer is coming, and I was getting really tired of all the rain and flooding. But this is such a sudden change that I’m getting whiplash here!

Hoping

… My partner gets a job soon. There have been a lot of interviews lately, we’re really hopeful!

A Month in Review: March 2017

Inspired partly by this post, but borrowing the cool structure from this one.

March was a very, very busy month for me. One of my jobs is for a parenting magazine, and we had our big annual event with booths and live performances and all sorts of family friendly fun. I did all the social media marketing for it, all the email marketing for it (including informational emails to the booth vendors), put the performance schedule together, and acted as stage manager when the person who was going to do it ended up needing back surgery.

The show was a HUGE success. One group canceled a couple days before and one group just didn’t show up, but we started out strong with an awesome exotic animal show. Towards the end of the program we had this AMAZING hiphop dance group, some of which were six to eight years old. The younger ones were adorably flustered, because apparently this was the first performance they’d ever done! Some of their parents even brought flowers to hand them after they left the stage. The older students were really good, and the dance instructor was this cool, super enthusiastic lady who I kind of want to be friends with now. My partner and I made sure to nab one of her fliers to save for when we have kids, haha.

All of my coworkers told me I did a good job with the show. My partner, who doesn’t like crowds of loud unruly children that you might find at, say, a camp fair event held at a mall, but came anyway and stayed the whole time. One of the people manning the booths came over and thanked me for including his Christmas light display in the December issue guide. Our Editor told me that the rough draft summer camp guide I’d submitted to her last week for our April issue was one of the neatest, thorough, and most consistent guides she’d ever seen — and our office manager had already said earlier that week that they were sorry for everything they’d needed to cut for space reasons.

So basically I spent all of Friday on cloud nine.

Here are some of my other March highlights:

  • Made new friends at our local bar. This is a big deal because, despite living in this county for a couple years now, we didn’t have any local friends.
  • Went to an awesome Meetup for local queer folks. We’re basically the youngest people in the group, but they’re cool people and we had a lot of fun. Also, it turned out that the wine tasting was free, donated by the owner who was a member of the group as well! We bought a bottle to show our support.
  • Checked out the local sports center/arcade hall. They had everything. They had ski ball, air hockey,  and all the usual kinds of arcade video games, but instead of collecting tickets it all went on your money card to be redeemed for prizes later. I have less than complimentary feelings towards the bar service, which was insanely slow, but it was an awesome night and we need to go back. (There are some prizes we have our eyes on that require more points to collect.)
  • My partner had interviews in some local tasting rooms. Lots of potential new job news is brewing, people. It’s very exciting.

And here’s what I am currently:

Writing

… All the things! I’ve committed myself to writing 26 short stories this month and am already super excited about posting the letter B story on Monday.

Planning

… Some potential life changes for the better. More on that later, maybe, when something comes of it.

Making 

… In indoor cat garden. Luci is a fan of the ‘nip. 2017-04-01 16.12.27

Anticipating

… A really cool Passport event we’ve signed up for in April, and hoping some of our friends will be able to come with us. The wineries in that particular valley are awesome, and, very importantly, this two day event includes food. Food is with wine is vital if, like me, you are a lightweight.

Reading

… Lots of new blogs participating in the A to Z Challenge.

Watching

… Buffy the Vampire Slayer. We didn’t get all the way through it again before Netflix cut us off, so we caved and signed up for Hulu. I can’t help but think this was a very clever marketing campaign collaboration…

Feeling

… Content. I think April will be a good month for our household.

Needing

… More sleep. Somebody was snoring last night.

Loving

… My partner and our cats, even though a different somebody keeps trying to eat my hair.

Hating

… Donald #NotMyPresident Trump. He and his cronies make me so mad I actively avoid watching the news.

Hoping

… That my partner gets a job they love, that we tell our parents about a hilarious new life choice we made and they don’t judge us too much, and that my cousin who is turning 21 this month actually follows through on letting us drag him up here to our local bar.