IWSG Post #08


JUNE QUESTION: Did you ever say “I quit”? If so, what happened to make you come back to writing?

(Who has two thumbs and hasn’t answered an IWSG question since February? And also totally forgot to post this a couple weeks ago? This girl.)

I don’t think I’ve ever walked away from writing as a whole.

There are plenty of drafts I’ve walked away from though. I walked away from one story in high school because it just read too much like Grapes of Wrath, a book I did not particularly enjoy but happened to be reading for lit class at the time. I walked away from my first NaNoWriMo attempt, also in high school, before finishing because it was just not good, haha.

I walked away from a couple of writing communities over the years, all fanfic related. One was all but inactive by the time I joined anyway. Another one was a little bit full of drama and many fans who were… let’s call them blunt. Plus, I got sick for a bit and got behind watching the show, took a break to avoid spoilers, and just sorta never jumped back in. The third was less fic writing and more rp based (role play, meaning I was writing as my chucaracter and pantsing it the hole way along with everyone else), and moving away from that one was more a combo of having less time to devote to keeping up and a bunch of my rp friends drifting away from it too.

With each of those I walked away with more than I’d started with. I learned so much from my three fandoms before moving on: how to work with betas, how to share my writing regularly with other people, how to write quickly and be able to post quickly to keep up with the pace of rp threads. There’s a fair amount of my writing still on the internet that I’m not necessarily proud of, quality-wise, but I’m proud of the fact that I did it. I’m also never going to read it again, because I don’t have to and I don’t wanna.

For the most part, my breaks from writing have been due to a lull in mood and energy. I take a break to focus on getting through the daily grind, and when I get back to a place where I have energy to spare again I wrote.

IWSG Post #07


March IWSG Day Question: Have you ever pulled out a really old story and reworked it? Did it work out?

Recently, actually. It didn’t work out, but I did end up rereading some short pieces I wrote in 2010 and probably haven’t revisited since. It’s fascinating to read stuff you no longer have any idea where you were going with.

The reason it didn’t work out is because the new idea that had inspired me to look through my old writing didn’t quite fit with the characters I’d been thinking of. Which is kind of irritating, because I miss them and had gotten all excited over the idea that I might be able to get down a new piece of their story… but when I read back over what I had so far, I realized it wasn’t something that would happen to them.

But that’s okay, because I still wrote the new idea. Part one, anyway. The rest is still in progress and was partly spurred on by wanting to find something new to ground the initial concept in.

Maybe I’ll pull the old story out and fiddle with it next, after I’m done with this new project. It’s nice to be reminded of a story that I know I’ll put down on paper some day but don’t feel pressured or rushed to do so. Over the past two years that’s basically what my NaNoWriMo novels have been — big fancy excuses . I haven’t finished them either yet, but that’s okay too. They’ll come together when they’re ready.

(I’m still coasting on the gleeful fact that in the past two years and even just the past few months I’ve done a lot more original creative writing than I have in years. This should last for a while and I’m content with that.)

IWSG Post #06


FEBRUARY QUESTION: How has being a writer changed your experience as a reader?

I think the biggest impact is in my book choice. A lot of my reading happens via audiobook in my car, and if there’s a particular story I’m working on I tend to queue up books that (a) I’ve read before and (b) fit the subject, general theme, or ambiance of what I’m trying to write. It puts me in the right headspace for what I want to do… or at the very least doesn’t yank me out of it.

For example, when working on Growing Magic I tend towards books where I really admire the world building, or the rules of magic, or if it just has a really cool adventure plot that vibes with what I want my characters to experience.

Audiobooks also help me de-stress after work. I like to think of it as holding harsh reality at bay so that I can go home and write rather than go home and lay on the floor experiencing existential crises.

When a person is lucky enough to live inside a story, to live inside an imaginary world, the pains of this world disappear. For as long as the story goes on, reality no longer exists.

Paul Auster

IWSG Post #05

JANUARY QUESTION: What writing rule do you wish you’d never heard?

Oh… there are a couple. Some are just on the list because I’m a slightly obsessive person and knowing these “rules” makes me pretty annoying when reading over someone else’s work. But I have to say that the rule I genuinely wish I’d never heard is…

Write every day. 

I know, I know it’s a good habit. It’s a good goal, but I beat myself up a little on the inside whenever I don’t meet it. The discouragement of not living by the rule outweighs the benefits of living by it successfully, for me. I feel weirdly as though I’m constantly competing against myself. That said, participating in NaNoWriMo has kicked me into a higher gear than usual lately and I do want to try and keep that up. Maybe just not mandatory every day.

And now, the rules I do appreciate but obsess over more than I should:

  • Only use said, with limited variations such as whispered or yelled. Don’t get into “he grated out” or “she snorted” territory, because you don’t talk literally through your teeth or your nose. (I think the gist of this is something I picked up from Stephen King’s On Writing.)
  • Use any “-ly” words as sparingly as possible because it’s telling rather than showing. (Also from On Writing.)
  • Consecutive sentences and consecutive paragraphs should not start with the same word or phrase. (Not sure where this came from, but if I see two sentences in a paragraph start with the same words I start counting how many nearby sentences do the same. It’s exhausting.)
  • If you have back and forth dialogue and then descriptions of what different characters are doing/thinking/etc., it goes in the same paragraph as what they’re saying. Someone else does something? Separate paragraph. (Not sure if this is real advice or just a thing I do. I can’t remember if I got it from anywhere besides just generally being a bookworm.)

IWSG Post #03


NOVEMBER’S QUESTION: What is your favorite aspect of being a writer?

Look at me remembering this in time and posting during NaNoWriMo! These are a few of my favorite things:

* Getting lost in daydreaming about a story. I enjoy this part even more than actually writing it.

* This is work I can do in my pajamas before I’m even out of bed for the day. I mean, I don’t get paid for it and I usually have to get out of bed anyway and go in to the office, but still. Weekends are great.

* Writing to try and make sense of reality or explain something to myself. I did this a lot with research papers in college, but it works with fiction too.

* The “ah ha!” feeling of finally figuring out a solution to a troublesome plot hole.

* Character building. I love taking an idea for a person and fleshing them out into a believable, unique character with their own hopes, dreams, and motivations. Even if they sometimes take an odd turn and develop traits I hadn’t expected or planned for in their story.

* Being impartial. As the writer I don’t feel like it’s my place to pick a stance one way or another about what happens in my stories — not that I don’t, but I keep it out of my writing because that responsibility falls on the characters that live in inhabit the story. As a person who’s never been terribly good at picking sides, it’s a nice reprieve.

* Feedback. I really enjoy getting constructive criticism and figuring out which comments I should take into account and then working the suggestions and new ideas into my writing. Honestly, I don’t think I would have turned out this way if it hadn’t been for college writing classes and seriously getting into writing fanfiction at roughly the same time. The support, camaraderie, and positive feedback (from either source) was enough of a counter note to the negative crap (from either source) that I ended up fairly resilient.


IWSG Post #02

The Insecure Writer's Support Group

October 5th Question: When do you know your story is ready?

I don’t, really.

For the last several years, I haven’t felt like I really finished anything. Even when I was writing a lot of fanfiction, I generated and posted it at breakneck speed before my insecurity could stop me. Typos? It’s just the internet. I don’t know my audience all that personally and I can go back and fix any typos or other glaring errors I catch later on if I’m really that fussed about it.

Aside from the crushing self-doubt that’s slowed my creative output to a trickle, I feel like this is a fairly reasonable attitude. When I do get something published, I’ll probably know even less of my audience. The biggest difference is that once it’s submitted and put in print, I won’t be able to go back to make changes — and yet I keep stumbling across editions from various authors where they have, gasp, made changes. The 10th anniversary edition of American Gods by Neil Gaiman, for instance. Or the 35th anniversary audiobook edition of The Sword of Shannara by Terry Brooks, annotated with all the author’s comments about his editors’ input, his original thought processes, and pithy little “Well, what do you think?” comments. Even big names like these came back to their stories after a few years and thought of more things they could do to make the story really complete, really ready for the next generation of first-time readers.

No one ever feels like the story is quite done. The best you can ever do is get to the end, edit well, get good eyeballs and feedback on it before it’s published, and move on to the next story. Give it some time to settle.

“Personally, I think you learn more from finishing things, from seeing them in print, wincing, and then figuring out what you did wrong, than you could ever do from eternally rewriting the same thing. But that’s me, and I came from comics where I simply didn’t have the liberty of rewriting a story until I was happy with it, because it needed to be out that month, so I needed to get it more or less right first time. Once I disliked a Sandman story on proofreading it so much that I asked if it could be pulled and buried and was told no, it couldn’t, which is why the world got to read the Emperor Norton story, “Three Septembers and a January”, although I no longer have any idea why I thought it was a bad story, and I’m pleased that Tom Peyer ignored my yelps.” ~ Neil Gaiman

On the off chance things still bother me by the time I’ve made it big, I’ll revise them then.

IWSG Post #01

I just found this through Elegance Icy’s post! (Yeah, I am that far behind on all the blogs I follow. It’s… one of those months. Again.)

The Insecure Writer's Support Group

The purpose of the Insecure Writer’s Support Group is to share doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak, and encourage each other. There’s a new question on the first Wednesday of every month, so here’s July.

What’s the best thing someone has ever said about your writing?

This is not difficult to answer. A college friend of mine who I followed on Tumblr did one of those “give me a number and I will publish a compliment directed anonymously to your number.” What she wrote was beautiful, and I was smart enough at the time to take a screencap of it.

First, I should say that these days I struggle with the feeling that I was a much better writer in college than I am now. I haven’t really written and completed any original fiction since graduating six years ago. (My NaNoWriMo novel does not count, because even though I hit the 50k word mark I didn’t actually get to the end of the story.) I still haven’t gotten anything published. I haven’t even tried to enter any writing contests. Even when I sort of make some progress on my novel, I still feel like I’m merely treading water.

So every once in a while I pull this out and read it again for a self-esteem boost.

“Oh my god, have I ever mentioned that you saved [that writing class] for me? Because you did. You were a huge part of why I didn’t pointlessly cause conflict in that workshop — I might’ve been closer with [some of our other classmates], but you were one of the standouts in that class, because you didn’t just kowtow to [the professor’s] definition of ‘acceptable’ fiction, and her habit of erasing sci-fi, fantasy, and supernatural-themed stories with stuff like, ‘I don’t even think this IS a fantasy story.’

I was actually going through some of my collections from old classes the other day and found an old copy of [one of your stories from that class] and remembered just how much I fucking loved it. If I haven’t mentioned it before: I love how uncompromising you were about the fact that people can write ‘genre fiction’ and have it be amazing, even if it doesn’t fit the strictest definition of ‘literary fiction.’

You can be really shy and kind of quiet, in person, but anyone who thinks you’re just that is dead wrong — you’re feisty, your sense of humor is absolutely killer, I love your brain and how unique your perspective on things are… You’re one of the people who makes me proud to have gone to [our college]. You’re a great example of what our alma mater’s system can produce, when it’s paired with someone who has all the talent and insight, but also has a drive that some people lack. It’s not like, drive in a stereotypically Slytherin-esque, ‘I want to take over the world’ sort of way; it’s this quiet determination to make yourself and your work the best that it can be, and I admire that in you.”

… That’s probably not only the best thing anyone has said about my writing, but the best, most well-composed compliment I’ve ever received.

My first thought upon rereading it was, “No… I wasn’t that uncompromising.” And then I remembered some of the arguments heated discussions I got into with that professor. Mostly they involved fanfiction and whether or not it was a valid writing exercise (I still think it is), but although I can’t remember specifics I’m sure there were more topics besides that one that we clashed over. That example statement is something that would make me cranky enough to say something, especially if I’d been hearing it on a regular basis. If you wanted to consider a sci-fi story more in terms of the human elements than the setting it’s placed in then fine, but it is still sci-fi because you could do that with just about any story.

I’m already itching to find the story she was talking about and reread it, maybe edit it a bit and try to get it published somewhere. The reason I never had before is because I always sort of wanted it to be longer, possibly novel length. But I’ve also read a fair amount of novels that were originally published as short stories, so why not. Might as well work on my follow-through.

To all insecure writers out there (insecure anybody, really), I recommend going to your most eloquent friend and asking them to write down something they really like about you. Then save it and keep it for any gloomy moods you have in the years to come.